know what i'm sayin'?
I make a huge statement and then it goes nowhere.
i'm tired as all hell, tried calling my guy friend because i 'have to,' hung out w/bf Jason (AWESUMM) this morning, he left, I have a huge mess from lunch to clean up. know what I've noticed lately? I HATE CLEANING UP THE KITCHEN COUNTER. I don't understand how it can be totally therapeutic to some people, but then I feel them pretty well. We all grow on stuff that works for us, if what I just said makes sense. I'm kinda sorta listening to this album I, like, NEVER listen to at all but it makes me think of Jason because he absolutely ADORES Incubus, and Morning View's his total fave album...in fact he said he'd easily get another copy just because it's that valuable to him that he'd want to have a replacement should something happen to the other one, or at least so he could have one just incase something temporary had to take the album out of his possession. aaaanywayz...let's see. to-do list. IF i actually have any energy to make one up.
1. clean up living room
2. CLEAN UP KITCHEN
3. try doing math hw again
4. graphic design work
5. read a bit/watch movie
oooor take a walk...iiiif it does NOT rain.
you know, maybe there's some sense about me having titled my journal entry what it was. hm. prob because there was one night I had the WORST time falling asleep cuz I wondered if there was going to be an earthquake any second (I was going through some stress that night, I think), but then i did fall asleep 'til a rude awakening--yeah, that's what I call it when I wake up in the morning and feel this rotten attitude coming along knowing I shouldn't've slept so little. I mean, it's not always a rude awakening. but i'm off the subject again. i think. i think we just have to live our lives and stop worrying about perfection and stressing out and our futures and, of course, death (although that's something unto itself). wait why did I put that part in parentheses? AAAGH oh well.
you read my journal entry probably if you do do that and you turned up on this from FB or some such thing. and please, get somebody to comment if they feel they have any input....half kidding. i guess?
Current Music: incubus "just a phase" (stuck in head)